16 weeks

I don't know how it happened, but I feel that time is finally starting to pass at more than a snail's pace. I think it helped that I automatically gained a week between week 13 and 14 when the ultrasound placed me a week ahead of schedule. Before then, it just felt that time was going by excruciatingly slowly and I was getting impatient for an observable change. Now that I've got a bona fide bump (albeit, a tiny one as the baby's only ~5 inches & ~5 oz), I imagine changes will start taking place much more quickly. And the baby will start to move and we'll find out the gender and then we'll have to start on everything else, like researching registry items, and figuring out what to name the kid....

It just started raining here in Waikiki. I was wondering where the sun went...not that I'm out in it or anything because I'm still sick, sick, sick. Feels like a terrible sinus infection, and one severe enough to have kept me out of work, if I'd been at work and not trying to enjoy a beach vacation...I'm not going to dwell on that however, because I've still managed to get a tan (from the hotel room balcony and walking around outside) and am still relaxing despite my inability to breathe through my nose. Could be worse.

I did venture out yesterday in search of a real drugstore (Walgreens) as these local touristy shops didn't seem to have the approved homeopathic remedy on my midwives' website. Luckily, Walgreens had it ($15 for six 6-hour doses...terrible) and there just happened to be a regular mall directly across the street so I got a little shopping therapy in too. If only my sinus medication hadn't quit on me in the fitting room...So the latter half of the shopping trip and the walk back to the hotel was pretty awful, but oh well. I got the medication I needed and some really sweet deals on clothes I'll grow out of in a month. Eh.

On a closing note, my mood swings/hormones/emotional bouts sneak up on me at weird times. I'm not sure what I anticipated going into the pregnancy - maybe that I'd be at an elevated emotional level the whole time? That's definitely not the case, which I'm sure Kenny and my coworkers are thankful for, but they do ebb and flow somewhat inconsistently. Take, for example, the simple act of landing in Honolulu. It might have been because traveling is uncomfortable and energy-draining, and we hadn't gotten much sleep the night before, and we were just happy to be there and done with flying, but I literally started tearing up as soon as we got outside to go pick up our bags because of the sun that immediately hit me. I was nearly crying because I was so happy it was warm (I may cry when I have to go back home and deal with snow again). And getting sick has thrown me off - I was feeling so sorry for myself the first day when it seemed the worst and had bouts of crying because I was just so miserable. And I've been hyper-aware of any ache or pain in my stomach region because I'm feeling wary (and guilty) of the drug effects that this pregnancy-approved sinus medication may have on the baby. Which also made me cry. So I may cry because I'm so miserable, take a pill to feel better, cry because I'm feeling guilty that my own selfish desire to quell symptoms may have harmful effects for the baby, and cry some more because I've been crying and my runny nose/sore throat has gotten worse (if that's possible). And yet, I have moments of logic, like now, where I can laugh at myself for being so sensitive and irrational. Not that that means I won't be crying an hour from now...